Saturday, July 5, 2014

Epilogue

Today, like last Saturday, I went to the farmers market in Kingston, NY where I live. There's a man there from Cordoba called "Chef Ef" who runs a paella stand, proudly flying both the American and Spanish flags. Last week I spoke to him and got some paella, which was heavy on seafood. This week I got chicken and sausage paella, a much better choice for me. As he scooped my paella out of the giant wok, I heard a faint melody. I was taken back to The south end of Calle Asunción to the first row of tents at La Feria. My friend Raul Gomez, winner of the Spanish Singing competition tv program much like American idol, called me to see if I was there so we could meet up. We found each other and he led me and some friends to a tent. There I had a typical feria drink, and tried to dance Sevillanas with his Spanish lady friends. The next day I went to the Feria with my school,  and we found a large public tent where we ate, drank, and danced. It was in one if not both of these tents that I heard that song before, and had tried to dance to it's fast rhythm. I then asked Chef Ef, "¿esta música es sevillanas?/is that Sevillanas music?, to which he replies "siii", as in "of course". It felt good to hear that music again in a setting other than Spotify in my May-term dorm room.

I officially miss Spain. Not everything, but lots of things. I miss the wonderful food. I've tried to make tortilla española, but can't quite get it. I miss the freedom, and deciding what I was gonna do, where I was gonna go, and when I did what. I miss the people. I miss the American friends I made, and I miss my spaniard friends. I am so grateful to live in an age where I can keep in contact with all of them whether we're a state or and ocean apart. I miss the beautiful, exotic architecture. I miss the passion in Sachez-Pizjuan during a Sevilla FC game. I miss being able to speak in Spanish. I miss going for a run in the Plaza de España, seeing tourists and thinking "ugh, tourists." I miss the adventure of exploring new places with new friends, like going to Paris armed with nothing but the Apple Map app and 2 phrases in French.

This list is incomplete, but it summarizes the big idea.

I never thought I'd feel this way, but I really miss these things. I really miss Spain.

Monday, May 12, 2014

There and Back Again

I'm home. I've been home since Thursday, May 8th. Words cannot describe how good it feels to be back, and neither can they describe the experience I just returned from. So far people have asked me "How was Spain?", "Tell me about Spain!", and other related inquires. I always draw a blank. Where would I even start? This past semester was one of the most difficult and most rewarding times of my life. I have never done anything as challenging and exciting. I have grown as an individual more in those 4 months than I have in God-knows how long. Will I miss Spain? Yes. I miss the food, and the friends I've made there like Ruben, Sylvia, Raul, Yvan, Tato (host brother) and my other Spanish friends, as well as the American friends I grew really close to like Jordan, Elise, Kelsey, and Andrea (I miss everyone, I just spent the most time with these four).

My Spanish has grown exponentially. The first week of classes my grammar teacher Carmen told me she thought I would be better off dropping into the lower level of advanced grammar. I told her that I wanted the challenge and was willing to put in the work. She let me stay, and she admitted the last week that I was true to my word and had improved tremendously. My host family would continually point out how when I first arrived it took me a while to say things, and I had to listen for a long time to understand. By the end, I was having normal paced conversations, only pausing when I didn't know what a word meant.

My level of independence has gone up to the point I feel almost completely self-sufficient (just need a steady source of income :P). I mean, I've flown, booked hotels, and traveled almost entirely on my own.

I'm braver. I had to fend for myself, try new foods, talk to strangers, walk home at night, etc. I had to overcome some serious anxiety. I got some guts in Spain.

My maturity in my behavior has increased, even though to be honest I thought I was pretty mature to begin with.

I'm more secure in who I am, and not afraid to be me. I have "nerdy" passions and a different personality, and I'm not going to put those things away to please anyone.

I'm more cultured. I mean, I've been to the Louvre. Doesn't get more cultured than that. and I learned how to dance.

I've come to see the challenge of keeping the faith outside of a christian atmosphere, where there are no bible classes and no one really shaming you or looking down on you for not going to church.

I've come to see the challenge of eating well when you don't have a regulated lifting/conditioning program for your sport. I did my very best with the time and resources I had to stay in shape for football, but this was a huge challenge. I'm not sure how this will play out after my last year of football when my only motivation to go to the gym will be so I dont have to buy bigger pants.

I've come to appreciate relationships more. Distance makes the heart grow fonder, and I grew very fond of people while I was gone, many platonic, some familial, one romantic.

I am not the same person I was on January 20th when I left for Spain. Something I realized on the plane to Boston after it was all said and done is that there will be more times in my life when I look back and say something similar.

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"You've changed, Bilbo Baggins. You're not the same hobbit who left the shire."
-Gandalf, The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug




Tuesday, April 29, 2014

America the Beautiful

I came to this realization a while ago, but thought I'd post it.

In our Latin American Literature class, we learned about authors who would go from central/south america and go to Paris, and then write beautiful poems about their home countries. Distance makes the heart grow fonder I suppose.

The same happened to me. I realized how much I love the US. I have found that I can now equate my country to a woman you fall in love with:


She's not perfect, and yet she's perfect for me.
She has her problems; who doesn't?
Sometimes she can really make me mad.
I can't stay mad at her for too long.
After just a little while her beauty just captivates me again.
Don't you even think about disrespecting her, especially in front of me.
There is no where else I'd rather be in this world.
She's home for me; she's where I belong.
I will die with her; I would die for her.

When written like that and read out of context, you have no idea it isn't about a woman.

#MURICA

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Paris: Bringing me closer to Star Wars, Call of Duty, Disney, and Assyria

Not a few weeks after arriving in Seville, I began planning what I was going to do during Semana Santa, otherwise known as spring break. Seeing as how I was in Europe, I had to take the opportunity to go to at least one country other than Spain while I was here. The call went out on facebook, and the most cost effective trip was three days in Paris (Some other places that were good but got knocked out of the running were Milan and London). I had a bit of a nest egg from all of my on-campus jobs over the years, and that money went to buying my ticket, and my parents helped with the lodging. After we bought our plane tickets, there was nothing we could do but plan what we wanted to do and wait. As I looked online to find museums, sights, and prices, I stumbled across something. I was online looking at Louvre advance tickets, when a familiar black helmet caught my attention on the side of the screen. It was an ad for the Star Wars: Identities Expo. I had heard of the expo before, and knew it was in Canada to begin with, but it hadn't crossed my mind since I realized I would never be able to go. I click the link, and what do I see but the dates for when the expo will be in Paris. Paris. The city I was going to for spring break. I had to go. My two friends Jordan and Kelsey agreed to go with me after I bombarded them with information about it, and cause they're just that nice. They bought regular tickets, and I bought a special ID badge ticket for 5 euros extra. The kicker was the 20 euros it would cost to ship it from France to Spain. That 20 euros was worth it though when I saw an envelope postmarked from France with my name on it in the mail center at school. This was back in February, so there was a lot of time in between when I got it and when I got to use it. About 2-3 weeks before our trip, I began compiling prices of all of the places we wanted to go and made a custom Google map of everywhere we wanted to go, routes to metro stops, and even places like the US embassy just in case. We then met a week before our trip to make an hour-by-hour itinerary so that we would get to see everything we wanted to see. Yes, it was my idea because I'm that organized and love schedules. I would come to find out later though that my schedule had a serious flaw.

The night before our flight out from Seville I couldn't sleep. I felt quite the mixture of excitement to get out and explore somewhere new, and also anxiety from the fact I was going somewhere new. This was the first time I had ever traveled internationally to a country where I didn't speak the language and had no one waiting at the airport for me. We were gonna be on our own in France. I ended up finally being able to fall asleep around 2 AM, which would be fine if I didn't have to wake up around 5 to leave for the airport at 6. So running on 3 hours of sleep, I got myself showered and dressed and headed off to the airport with Kelsey and Jordan. My saintly host family was kind enough to offer to drive the three of us to the airport so we didn't have to catch a bus or take a taxi. We managed to get through the airport without a hitch, and same with catching the bus into Paris from the airport (we flew into Beauvais, so we were an hour outside of the city). When we got off the bus at Porte Maillot, we started walking to our hostel. To get to the metro stop we needed, we had to walk down the famous Champs-Elysses, which was pretty surreal. As we walked up the hill we came upon the Arc de Triomphe. This was the first of a recurring feeling I had while I was in Paris. I felt like I was in a book. All through elementary school I had French classes, in which we talked about places in Paris all the time, but they were never real to me. This feeling was only magnified when I was able to see the Eiffel Tower. But more about that later. 

I then had my first experience of a language barrier. I found the metro station, but had no idea if it was the right stop. I waited in line to talk to the information lady. In french, I asked her if she spoke English. It took her three times saying "a little" for me to understand her. I knew the name of metro stop we had to get to, so I asked her if we could get there from here, mixing English, French, and Spanish. For some reason, whenever I talk to someone foreign, no matter where they're from, my knee-jerk reaction is to speak to them in Spanish. I knew well and good that she was French and spoke French, but my brain was just like "foreign person = they speak Spanish". We got on the metro and got to our hostel without any problems. We got checked in, threw our stuff in our room, and continued with our adventure. We started off going to a bakery and getting some bread and such, cause that's what you do when you're in Paris. We then rode the metro back to Champs-Elysses and started walking toward the Eiffel Tower. I think it was on the metro ride back that we had the most hysterical encounter. As we sat on the subway, Kelsey wanted to review some French I had taught her, the most useful phrase of which was "I don't speak French." "Je ne parlais Francais", or something like that. I can say them, just cant spell them. As she asked me how to say it, and I said it slowly to her, and very french-looking business man did his best not break out in the cheesiest grin and laughter ever. He kept his composure, but couldn't help but crack the most smirkly-amused smile I'd ever seen. I noticed and looked over at him, and he continued to smile and tried not laugh, and gave me a little nod, saying "that's right". The three of us died laughing. That was the friendliest, most hysterical encounter I've ever had with a total stranger whose language I don't speak and typing it out in words doesn't do it justice. 

The original plan was to climb up to the first observation level, but the lines were enormous. We then crossed the street, a big deal for me since the bridge we crossed is the bridge you take in Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3 when you go into Paris:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xS98qzZbPQY

After seeing the tower, we walked south along the Seine so we could see the little Statue of Liberty. It was a nice little taste of home. We then looped back around to catch our boat for the boat tour of the northern part of the Seine (we bought tickets in advance online). Aside from being beside a bunch of Canadian highschoolers, the boat tour was great. We started right at the Eiffel Tower, worked our way up all the way to Notre Dame, and came back. We pulled in to harbor right at sunset, so we got to see the first lighting of the Eiffel Tower that night, when they make it sparkle. After the boat tour, we decided to head home but find some dinner on the way. Not many places were open since it was getting late, but we managed to squeeze into one Italian restaurant just before they closed. Enter language barrier encounter #2. It had never occurred to me I have no idea how to order food in French. All I can say is "I eat" followed by 3 different things, none of which I wanted. Thankfully pizza is an trans-lingual word, and pointing to something on the menu is always effective. There's nothing quite like the look of fear in a waitress' eyes when you say, in French, "I don't speak French". We still managed to get our food, enjoy in thoroughly, and head home.

Tuesday was our jam-packed day. We started off the day riding the metro for a very long time all the way from our hostel towards the south of Paris, up towards St. Denis University, all the way up north. Thankfully, it was just one metro line, so we didn't have to do any transfers. We arrived at Cite du Cinema and began our next adventure. Thankfully, the audio guides had an English option, and all the displays were written in French and English (Thank you, Canada). Basically, I wont be able to describe what it is very well, so look here:


It uses Star Wars as a template to examine how our identities come to be from various factors. Throughout the display, you see hundreds of props and costumes used in the movies, so that was freakin awesome. Also, it was interactive. There were 10 stations where you made choices that would affect who you were as a Star Wars character. Some were modeled after your real life, and some were completely based on how you react to a hypothetical situation in the SW universe. Here's my character (click the words):

I just went to STAR WARS™ Identities: The Exhibition. Meet my personal Star Wars™ Hero, Travis, a Kel Dor Jedi Knight from Naboo!

So yeah, that was pretty awesome. After that we took the metro towards eastern Paris to go the cemetery where Oscar Wilde, one of my favorite writers, is buried. We wanted lunch first, so we went to a bagel shop and got some bagels. We had already bough some cheese and nutella beforehand at a supermarket, so all we needed was the bread. We found a spot in the cemetery and ate our lunch. This is where my scheduling failed. First off, we ended up on the south end of the cemetery when we were supposed to start in the north. Second, I forgot to allocate time for lunch in our schedule. We ended up getting incredibly behind. Also, since we weren't in the right end of the cemetery, it took us forever to find Oscar Wilde's tomb. We did find it though, and after we walked rather briskly to find a metro stop. By now we were pros at the metro, so as long as we found a station, we could get where we needed to go. The next item on the agenda was to go down into the catacombs. We arrived at the catacombs at the time I had scheduled for us to finish at the catacombs, and the line had already been declared closed since they were getting close to closing for the day. A disappointment, but we had other things we wanted to go see. We then started walking up towards Notre Dame. Thankfully, entrance to the cathedral is free, so even though the line was huge, it moved quickly and we got in pretty quick. Not gonna lie, it's not as impressive as Seville's cathedral, but it was still cool to be inside, especially since we were there on Holy Week. The next plan was to go up in the towers, but like the catacombs, the line was cut off. We went and saw love-lock bridge, and then went to go see if we could get in Sainte Chapaille, or however you spell it. It was also closed. Thankfully, there was a nice little restaurant across the street, so we went there and got crepes. absolutely. delish. We then went back to our hostel room and watched The Hunchback of Notre Dame, cause you can't be in Paris and not watch that movie.

Wednesday was our last day. We were crunched for time since we had to catch the bus back to the airport at 2. We decided to devote the entire day to going to the Louvre. We got there a little after 9 when it opened, and it was packed. We got in line, and thankfully it moved pretty quick, and it wasn't actually that long. Once we were inside we could see how much longer the line was then when we were in it. When we got up to the ticket counter, I decided to ask if they had a student discount. The lady asked me if I was an EU citizen, or was studying in an EU country. I told her I was studying in Spain and showed her my student Visa. She told me to just show the ticket-checkers my visa and they would let me in. This was so exciting. Instead of paying 14ish euros, I got into the Louvre for free. Not only that, but they held onto our bags for us for free too. three hours is not enough time to see all there is to see in the Louvre. But we did see a lot. The Mona Lisa. The Venus de Milo. Even the Code of Hammurabi, which I didn't even know was in the Louvre. I also got to see tons of Assyrian and Persian stuff. That was really cool for me since as a bible major I study lots of Mesopotamian/ancient Middle-East civilizations, and have written two lengthy papers on Assyrian warfare.

The rest of our trip was just the journey back. It was a phenomenal experience. The weather was beautiful every day, and much cooler than Seville. The people were kind and friendly, and the food was terrific. No, we didn't get to see everything we wanted to, but it just gives me a reason to go back one day and have a whole bunch of different experiences.

In conclusion, J'aime Paris. 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Un Hombre al Borde de un Ataque de Nervios

Well, it has clearly been a long time since I've posted anything. My schedule got crazy, and I had a lot on my plate/mind. After getting back from Toledo, I had about two weeks of severe culture shock/homesickness.



If you see this chart seen above, I hit the deep #3 plunge. It wasn't pleasant, mostly because anxiety already has a nasty grip on my mind a lot of the time. Over the past year, I have made tremendous progress in getting a grip and controlling my anxiety. Of course, a lot of that progress went out the window once I stepped on the plane at Boston. I'm not entirely sure what set me down the slope of cultural shock, but it began to affect me in a lot of ways I didn't realize. Nervous eating creeped back into my habits. I started to freak out over where I would live during may-term and the upcoming fall semester. I really started to freak out thinking about my relationships back in the states, and if/how they would change when I got home. Everything manifested itself in a big breakdown of helplessness. I felt like there was nothing I could do in regards to my housing situation, relationships, etc since I was 3,000 some miles away. I have to nag my friends for updates in their housing situations to see if I can live with them. My friends lives carry on without me. My fear of my new kitten not wanting to see me as its owner since I couldn't be there to spend time with it. All of these things and more just weighed down on me so much, it brought me to tears. I thought I was safe from the "culture shock breakdown" since I had already been in Spain for over a month. Apparently, I just had a long honeymoon phase, because I just hit a wall. I found myself crying, repeating over and over "I just want to go home." I've usually had the problem of when something big in my life changes to keep it bottled up until I just burst. It happened this summer with moving, and it's happened in other situations beforehand. The problem I guess is that I can't see it building and building, because it's such a gradual process. After my breakdown, I'm not sure what in my head clicked, but I just felt better.

That right there. The fact that I felt better is important. Because it's one of the main reasons I hate society's expectation of men:

Men don't cry.

That's what we always are told. Men deal with their problems without the slightest emotion, unless you count indifference or rage as an emotion. Men aren't "allowed" to feel, because it makes us "weak". In the eyes of women, and other men. Because that's what society tells us. This is the most horrible thing men are told, even more so than "you have to look like an Abercrombie model to be attractive". Just honestly, if you think that, you need to check yourself real quick. I see the fact that Jesus, even while having a wild nature about him, prompting him to drive people out of the temple with a whip, still sat children down on his lap, wept for death of his friend Lazarus, and begged with God to spare His life in the garden, no doubt with tears in His eyes. He was gentle. He had feelings, often times of grief and despair. And he showed them. Why is it then that men, especially Christian men, don't find it "manly" to follow Jesus' example? Why do we let society dictate how we act? If we aren't supposed to let them dictate our actions, why do we let them dictate our emotions and how we express them?

I needed a good cry. Just telling people I wanted to go home would've been and had been perceived as whining, or being ungrateful for the opportunity I was given. I had to somehow get out the depth of how I was feeling. Not only that, I'm pretty sure I've heard that crying is physiologically good for our mental well-being.

*end soap-box*

All that being said, I am doing worlds better. I am on the uphill leading up to going home, adapting and accommodating to the culture. According to the chart, when I get home I'll have reverse culture shock. I am no longer naive enough to believe I'm immune. So here's what I ask:

If you read this, and you know that you'll be interacting with me in the first few months after I get home, PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME. I very well may not be emotionally stable. I don't really know what it will be like. These experiences are different in every person that goes abroad.

Sorry for the johnny-raincloud nature of the post. Just wait until I get back from Paris in April. That post is gonna be awesome.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Toledo: The Most Beautiful City This Side of Middle-Earth

Last week, we went on an excursion to Toledo. Thankfully, high school football trips made me an expert at sleeping on a bus, and the 7 hour car-ride to college has made me an expert at long car rides. With these two powers combined, the trip was pretty painless. Before arriving in Toledo, we stopped at Consuegra in La Mancha to see the Don Quijote windmills. In other words, we drove up to the top of a hill so the girls could take photos of each other looking over the Spanish countryside. But it was still pretty cool. After our quick stop there, it was a short trip to Toledo. As we pulled in front of the city, I learned something incredibly cool: the entire city is surrounded by a wall. This was a legit medieval city, with walls and gates and watchtowers. Having always loved stories with knights and swords and castles, this was pretty awesome for me. One of my favorite stories of that nature is The Lord of the Rings. The day before we left I learned that the swords and the One Ring itself were made in Toledo for the movie trilogy. So for those of you keep count at home:

1. I've been to a location where Star Wars was filmed.

and

2. I went to the town that made the one ring and all the swords used in the Lord of the Rings.

Conclusion: Spain is another circle of nerd-heaven. After checking into our hotel, I immediately went out shopping to see all the LotR stuff I could find in this wonderful city. The first thing I bought was an Anduril letter-opener that has "Toledo" written on it. The second thing I bought was a replica of the ring on a chain. Both things made in Toledo. After winding up and down the narrow and steep, cobble-stone streets of Toledo, we went to the Iglesia de Santo Tome to see a huge painting by El Greco, "El Entierro del Senor de Orgaz". It was much cooler to see this wall-sized painting in person than just as a projection on the whiteboard at school. After going there we went to a monastery, which was also pretty cool. After that we had more free time, so I went to more shops and walked around. The group of people I was with ended up going to the edge of the city right at sunset. Seeing the sunset over the medieval walls of the city was something spectacular that I'll probably never see anything like again. We then continued shopping, and I bought a little "puñal" (too long to be a dagger but too short to be a sword) hand-made in Toledo with certification from the town hall of Toledo. Afterwards, I went back to my hotel to eat a sandwich I had saved for dinner, and then went out with a big group of friends for pizza. I didn't get pizza since I just ate, so I just downed 1.5L of water. I was a bit dehydrated from all the walking and climbing hills.

The next day we went to the cathedral, which was awesome. We got to see another El Grego painting, "El Expolio". Same as before, much cooler in person. After, we got more free time in which I  bought some gifts for the family and my traditional magnet for my collection.

What did I learn in Toledo?

Not much about art or culture. Instead I learned something about myself....again. I feel like that's all I ever learn here. Too bad I don't have tests on that instead of grammar. But I learned that whatever I'm passionate about, I can't be afraid to show it. I love LotR. I was so happy when I found a good-looking ring replica for just 10 euros, but I was really hesitant to wear it. In middle and high school when I would do something like that, I just got picked on or made fun of. And yet, many people told me that since I had it, I had to wear it. I thought about it. and I put it on. And I felt great because it was me. I'm glad that the friends I've made here know I love "nerdy" things and just love me even that much more for it, and encourage me to embrace it. I'm not going to let other people's negative opinions affect how I act, or how I define myself, ever again. If someone treats me poorly cause I'm doing something "stupid", "nerdy", or "uncool", well that's just too bad. Their opinion doesn't matter to me, because the people who love me, those who really matter, won't care. This is just from the model that God has set. He doesn't see anything as "nerdy" or "dorky", or "cool" or "uncool", and he loves me whether I like LotR and Star Wars, or whatever might be something "cool". That's just one aspect of unconditional love, the love that we as Christians are called to exhibit. So if you know someone that wants to go to comicon, ask them who they're dressing up as. If you know someone who loves SW, ask them who shot first. How about we just let everyone embrace whatever "nerdy" passions they might have? cause odds are you have one too, and you wouldn't want someone making you feel stupid for having it.

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Pictures:

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10152332915017578.1073741833.647277577&type=1&l=e688fc0292

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Shared by a Friend in my Spain Facebook Group:

"Exchange is change. Rapid, brutal, beautiful, hurtful, colourful, amazing, unexpected, overwhelming and most of all constant change. Change in lifestyle, country, language, friends, parents, houses, school, simply everything.
Exchange is realizing that everything they told you beforehand is wrong, but also right in a way.
Exchange is going from thinking you know who you are, to having no idea who you are anymore to being someone new. But not entirely new. You are still the person you were before but you jumped into that ice cold lake. You know how it feels like to be on your own. Away from home, with no one you really know. And you find out that you can actually do it.
Exchange is thinking. All the time. About everything. Thinking about those strange costumes, the strange food, the strange language. About why you’re here and not back home. About how it’s going to be like once you come back home. How that boy is going to react when you see him again. About who’s hanging out where this weekend. At first who’s inviting you at all. And in the end where you’re supposed to go, when you’re invited to ten different things. About how everybody at home is doing. About how stupid this whole time-zone thing is. Not only because of home, but also because the tv ads for shows keep confusing you.
Thinking about what’s right and what’s wrong. About how stupid or rude you just were to someone without meaning to be. About the point of all this. About the sense of life. About who you want to be, what you want to do. And about when that English essay is due, even though you’re marks don’t count. About whether you should go home after school, or hang out at someone’s place until midnight. Someone you didn’t even know a few months ago. And about what the hell that guy just said.
Exchange is people. Those incredibly strange people, who look at you like you’re an alien. Those people who are too afraid to talk to you. And those people who actually talk to you. Those people who know your name, even though you have never met them. Those people, who tell you who to stay away from. Those people who talk about you behind your back, those people who make fun of your country. All those people, who aren’t worth your giving a damn. Those people you ignore.
And those people who invite you to their homes. Who keep you sane. Who become your friends.
Exchange is uncomfortable. It’s feeling out of place, like a fifth wheel. It’s talking to people you don’t like. It’s trying to be nice all the time. It’s bugs.. and bears. It’s cold, freezing cold. It’s homesickness, it’s awkward silence and its feeling guilty because you didn’t talk to someone at home. Or feeling guilty because you missed something because you were talking on Skype.
Exchange is great. It’s feeling the connection between you and your host parents grow. It’s knowing in which cupboard the peanut butter is. It’s meeting people from all over the world. It’s having a place to stay in almost every country of the world.
It’s cooking food from your home country and not messing up. It’s seeing beautiful landscapes that you never knew existed.
Exchange is exchange students. The most amazing people in the whole wide world. Those people from everywhere who know exactly how you feel and those people who become your absolute best friends even though you only see most of them 3 or 4 times during your year. The people, who take almost an hour to say their final goodbyes to each other. Those people with the jackets full of pins. All over the world.
Exchange is falling in love with this amazing, wild, beautiful country. And with your home country.
Exchange is frustrating. Things you can’t do, things you don’t understand. Things you say, that mean the exact opposite of what you meant to say. Or even worse…
Exchange is understanding.
Exchange is unbelievable.
Exchange is not a year in your life. It’s a life in one year.
Exchange is nothing like you expected it to be, and everything you wanted it to be.
Exchange is the best year of your life so far. Without a doubt. And it’s also the worst. Without a doubt.
Exchange is something you will never forget, something that will always be a part of you. It is something no one back at home will ever truly understand.
Exchange is growing up, realizing that everybody is the same, no matter where they’re from. That there is great people and douche bags everywhere. And that it only depends on you how good or bad your day is going to be. Or the whole year.
And it is realizing that you can be on your own, that you are an independent person. Finally. And it’s trying to explain that to your parents.
Exchange is dancing in the rain for no reason, crying without a reason, laughing at the same time. It’s a turmoil of every emotion possible.
Exchange is everything. And exchange is something you can’t understand unless you’ve been through it !"